Today is the first day of my unpaid maternity leave. I am pretty sure I am not going back to my company because they do not offer part time or telecommuting work. I have been agonizing over this day for weeks because it is the first day of my career as a full time mother. I have the opportunity to possibly get a telecommuting job doing programming at home. I drive myself crazy because I have been dying to get a job where I can work from home so I can have my own money and own income. I have been going on and on about how I do not want to go back to penny pinching and having to bargain shop. Yet, now that getting a job where I can work for home is a real possibility, I am just as scared as if there were no opporunity at all. I am worried I will take the job and my life will fill up again and I will not make room for any genuine change in my life.